The Start of Something new...

I have decided to take a journey this Summer, not a far away one where I leave for 6 months and come back a different person. A journey that does not require to leave my comfy living situation or the ones I love so much.
Im buying a business license and will be participating in every farmer's market I can, giving Henna to Utah... I will work hard, I will have tattoos, and maybe dreads, I won't wear much make-up, and I will meet the most incredible people in Utah. I will love my life as I make money (hopefully), and become stronger and more outgoing! I will bike everyday and get in shape.
I declare this the Summer of Bum-hood!!!!
And Im stoked...
Love*

...realization...

Have you ever stepped back from your life and be completely blown away with how things seem to turn out? I do. I always used to say I need another adventure until I realized my life is one big adventure. From all the crazy DJing with my amazing boyfriend to becoming even closer to my family to searching for an amazing job. Life is rad. Life is exactly as it should. Life is an adventure that I hope to one day accomplish. Today, someone said that I am exactly what I should be. I somewhat disagree since Im jobless, live with my parents, and broke...but I suddenly realized Ive never been so happy in my life. Money, a nice apartment, or an impressive job cannot make you happy, only you can make you happy. So, therefore, I choose HAPPY! I have an amazing guy, an amazing horse-dog, great friends and family, and I know things will happen when their suppose to. Be happy. Always and forever.

Sometimes life is crazy... and other times your life makes perfect sense so you dye your hair brown. I dunno, I don't have a good excuse for the change that I never even imagined doing, but so far so good. Its like I don't even recognize the brown haired hooligan in the mirror, then I realize she is a hooligan and remember its me!
Brady is one of those guys that sometimes you just can't get enough of... he's officially my best friend and I feel like were never bored. Is that possible for a girl with ADD?? Huh, life is great!
This week I feel the need to play the guitar and write songs and have a flashback to my old life, which I miss sometimes, but most times I love the present, its awesome.
I want dreads and a rock climbing body. I want the world to be rid of greed. I want to be able to hand my dog, Clutch, the keys to my car so he can warm it up when it is cold out. (I don't think this is too far off, since he opens the door to let himself out to go to the bathroom.) I also want my family to be sincerely happy. They deserve it. They are all amazing, but sometimes I feel they won't let themselves be happy. Family, be happy!
Life is exciting and incredible! Live it to the fullest and don't over-analyze it!!! Let yourself be happy!!!

DINER DINER DINER!!

So I have always believed in things happening for a reason and when their suppose to happen. My diner is in the works and its all coming together finally. Last week an industrial 4ft griddle and 3ft grill feel into my lap and also a double wide deep fryer. Crazy huh??
Well, it gets crazier, the next day a guy just handed over a walk-in fridge for free.
I think God is telling me I need a diner in my life, eventually. Its not gonna happen too fast cause I want to be very very prepared which I am in the works becoming prepared, but I don't want to fail. I am getting excited and Brady and my family is getting very excited for me and already asking to work for me, hahaha!!! Gotta love fate.

Open ur eyes!!!

When you close your eyes, does it have an underlying meaning that your lying to yourself or are you just trying to hide from this cruel world? When I chose to close my eyes, I imagine an amazing world not full of greed, hate, and pride. It would be the most beautiful place. But, today I chose to leave my eyes open and enjoy the amazing world we do live in. God knew what he was doing when he created it. There so much beauty and kindness in the world. Nature will tell you it's secrets if you let it and people can be the biggest blessing in your life. I have had such amazing people come in and out of my life that I feel have made me who I am today. Thank you to all I have known and to all of those that I will know in the future.
I am in a chessy mood today, but I feel I need to express my chessiness to the world today and I don't know why. I bought a new lemon leaf-thyme candle today and I feel like its this damn candles fault right now. Damn you, deliciously smellin sweetness that makes me feel giggly, no, not giggly, content with my life. Haha. Blogs don't have to make sense right?
Well, if so, come get me Blog Police!!!
I just switched my music from Coldplay to Jimi Hendrix. Now I am officially happy. Love ya Jimi!!! Brady, my Boyfriend, feels my relationship with Jimi Hendrix is more than it should be. I feel he is awesome and want to listen to his awesome jams and theres nothing more than that!

Why???

Life. It never makes sense and when you try your hardest to make sense out of it, it punches you in the face. Life sucks at times and is righteously awesome at others.
I love trials and just chill moments, but when something happens to your best friend, your favorite person in the world, it hurts you too.
Brady's childhood house just burned to the ground. They are all devastated. I can't even imagine how I would feel to know that nothing was left of your true home. I pray for them constantly. I love his family so much and am sick over the situation. No one was hurt, thank goodness. But still so sad
Life. Sometimes I wanna punch it in the face sometimes.

Delightful

Today started out with me being dragged outside to pick up dog poop. Damn Dog!!! I gotta love them but six bags, yeah, that's what i wrote SIX paper brown grocery bags full of poop. That's something that just make me wanna gag. After that experience it made me wanna crawl back into my bed and curl into the fetal position while thinking about daisy's and laundry or something clean and delicious. The rest of my day included welding (No Burns!!!), and recipe study. For dinner we had sloppy Joe's and a Zupas-Like salad with the dressing homemade and awesome!! It was a maple vinaigrette with apples, candied almonds, and Gorgonzola cheese. Yeah, it was that good!! Ha ha!!
Tomorrow, i am feeling the need to go to the art supply store and stock up on some oil paints and get down to business. My rad boyfriend, Brady took me to the Springville art museum on Saturday and it made me miss my artistic days of creating paintings after paintings. On the other hand, finger paints are about 1/16Th the price and much funner at a completely different angle. Hmmm, decisions are the worst!!!
Speaking of being a four year old, my boyfriend feels I am very kid-like! So what if the first thing on my Christmas list to Santa was the Crayola Glow Station, which I received and am completely in love with. I don't wanna grow up, I'm a Toys'R'US Kid. (I wish my keyboard had a backwards "R" on it, for this very occasion!!!
Catch ya Later!!!

Wheat, also known as "The Devil!!!"

So, I know I've already written a blog today, but I i just gotta add another one.
Recently, I discovered I am allergic to wheat. You might think this sucks, you are mistaken...
This Sucks more than anything in the entire world for me, a baker!!!! I love bread and such. How the Hell am I gonna survive on no wheat??? Seriously, how? I have also come to find that I have no discipline. In other words, I eat wheat and spend the night completely regretting it, over and over again.
So, starting now I am setting a major goal. Discipline!!!! If I had this magnificint gift then I would reach almost all of my goals of 2010. I want to work more, earn more money. I want to lose weight and be healthier, and I want to persue my dream of owning my own diner. All these things will be in the works if I only had some serious discipline! So, including in this blog I am going to be including my progress on all three of these things.
Today, doesn't count right?? Haha! Cause I worked a couple hours, ate tacos for lunch, and did no research on my diner!!!
Theres always tomorrow!!!

First Post Ever!!

Well, Ive gone and done it! I'm officially a dork. I've created a blog and I'm almost already bored with it. My ADD has kicked up a notch and I am tempted to just walk away, but since my life is pretty fun and hilarious at times, I figure I should document all my stories and humility's with the world.
Today started earlier than normal since I had to drag my butt out of bed at 7:30AM! I know that most of you probably do this everyday, but me, being an insomniac for about a year now, it literally ruins my day!! Anyway, me and boyfriend's dog, Clutch, AKA our love child, had an ear infection so I had to take him to the vet, the same vet that we took him to a few months back to get his balls cut off. The same vet that after cutting off his balls, got infected and had to hold him another night and he literally hated us for weeks after that. Well, I finally dragged the shaking puppy into the vet's office, which is not easy for a 5'0" girl with a gigantic great dane that weighs almost as much as her. Well, hes fine. Gave him a shot, threw me some pills, and got outta there with my wallet $60 lighter than before. Oh well, my love child is worth it!!
Now I'm off to work. Welding is not as glamorous as everyone thinks it is. Trust me! I have the scars to prove it!!! Another thing about me like the only girl welder in the vicinity is old guys always come to watch and see the "girl welder"! LAME!! Well, I guess I'll catch ya later!!